I heard he had died.

I paused for a moment,

My eyes a bit glassy

With unshed tears.

It was all so long ago;

My first real crush.

I was overwhelmed

With unexplored feelings

And while aching for him

I was so hesitant,

So unable to jump in

And see where it would go.

Conversation, a kiss

Long hugs that I broke off,

Frightened of my need,

And questioning it all.

So I journeyed back in time

And had such regrets

But such sweet memories,

And I said with a sigh,

“Farewell, my almost lover”.