Miles And Minutes
โI was trying to be what you wantedโ
I pointed at my chest,
โI gave you miles of my road and you put up wallsโ
I press my hand against my heart, turning my fingers into a claw and making a twisting motion.
โI gave you hours of my time, my patience and you gave me fucking silencesโ
I beat my heart, teeth clenched pinching my inner cheek and drawing blood.
โI pushed aside grief, I listened to you suppress your shit over and overโ
Feeling the cut in my cheek, I swallow the blood and I feel my trust in you break.
โYou break the trust of the one you love, you canโt meet my gaze and you shut your eyesโ
I smile, pushing my anger to one side, knowing that the damage done, feels like a twisted rusted piece of barbed wire turning in my lungs which then begin to flood with copper tinged air.
โIf I feel this way, imagine how she feelsโ
I tried, was the answer.
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Love you R, this is not about her.
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