Mama I miss you
The boys miss you
Dad misses you
We’re not ok
I cry randomly
Our hearts hurt
You were our rock
Now we cry and remember the good times
Sad beyond belief
Feelings at our feet
Trying to move on
When will it end
Let the hurt stop
I can’t call or text
I bought your house
Now the memories live on
Mama we miss you
To infinity and beyond...
April 22, 2023-Day 45 on Hospice , she was given 3 months
Right in the middle of med time
I said I’m just gonna jump right in and give you a hug while I can
That was the warmest hug and embrace I think I ever remember having. She gave hugs but to me it felt awkward.
She pulled me closer with what strength she has left and squeezed me, gave me a smooch on my forehead and said she loves me. I can’t...
Love is the lie that keeps us alive.
Alive just long enough to die
Til death do us part is the saying
But why does love have to be a lie
The warm embrace of a partner
That loving touch we crave
In and out every single day
I don’t need a piece of paper to tell me who
My ride or die is.
That doesn’t mean anything but a ton of work.
I’d rather be partner for life by choice then ever by the book....
The slow nauseating feel when you’re around food
The death to your tastebuds
Losing taste for the things you love
One
By
One
You still crave those things
But you only think you know how they taste
The fried chicken you want daily is used for smell
As you can’t taste the Kentucky fried goodness
The mashed potatoes and gravy becomes spicy and unwanted but the craving is still there
The Pepsi y...
Hush little ladies don’t you cry
Mama’s gonna zip those busy lips tied
All day long they scream and cry
Why can’t you behave like my good little guy
He’s quiet and there
unheard and unseen
A quiet proper boy indeed
Unlike you whining three
Tammy, Claire and missy
Come here, give mommy a hug
Used a needle not a gun
The silence is deafening
The noise is done...
Here it is the final choice to be made
Do you stay or go?
Do they bring joy to your life?
Do they add anxiety and stress?
Do you miss peace?
Feel like you’re missing something?
If you feel any one of them. Let me make this decision easy
Just go…..
If you are even at all hesitant or unsure
Just go
No hate or ill will
I want the best for you
But I want the best for me too
Let me let you in o...
The sky is a very ominous sight
It’s still ……dark
What silence and noise are quietly deafening
The ground and everything is wet
The fence is knocked down
You can hear the thunder rumble, sounding so close
The light show in the sky within the clouds
It’s beautiful in its own way
Grays mixed within black
A pop of pink and purple peeking through too
As is with depression it’s always gloomy an...
Let’s start off by saying iykyk
Energy is the capacity or power to do work.
Have you ever met a 5 year old?
They can be little jerks.
It’s fine, I’m talking about mine!
This age will take you to church.
They’re feral and eat anything in sight
But their favorites are Dino nuggs and veggie fries
It’s about facts and actions.
Rights and freedoms are for everyone.
Little gremlins working day and ...
That week I packed myself up in my truck
drove to my sisters and cried
I cried so much
I was drunk
I was wreckless
Toxicity fueling me
Until it happened
The guy I met up with was nice
He smooth talked a broken woman
But when I said “NO!!!”
That’s when he called be a whore.
I was violated
A part of me was stolen
I wanted to die
I felt alone
I felt judged hard
I said nothing
I just went to ...
The long days and even longer nights.
Up at 3am giving us all the fight.
She’s frail and boney, but feisty as ever.
But damn you if you don’t give her the lighter, you may lose a thumb.
Smokes and Pepsi.
That’s moms thing, take that away
Not knowing what mood you’ll get.
It’s hard watching the memory go
Not remembering who you are.
She’s confused and scared, I can see it in her face.
Talk to her l...
