listen
im sorry
i know what i did and i know it was wrong
and im scarred from the way your words cut me
like knives,
but ultimately,
i know it was my fault
listen,
i hate myself for the way i made you
hate me, i love you and you hated me
you say you didn’t but i saw the pain in your eyes
and the lies surrounding your words
as you said you would always love me
i’m sorry, i’m so sorry
you don’t h...
boom
windows clattering, curtains blown open wide
gray is rolling in like the ocean tides on the beach
something dark is in the air,
shut your doors,
tell your children to go inside.
pitter patter pitter patter
reindeer hooves are clacking on the roof
but it’s not christmas and santa isn’t here
drops of water fall from the ceiling,
you’d better slide a bucket under those leaks
your roof needs a...
to you,
i’m sorry
i didn’t love you,
well i did,
but not in the way you wanted
to you,
i’m sorry
for the way i treated you for the way i didn’t think
i should’ve thought
i love you,
but not in the way you wanted,
i know
to you,
i’m sorry i’m so sorry
i miss you luke i miss you so much
please if you come back ill be better
i’ll love you,
but still,
not in the way you want me to
i’m sorry...
you see,
my mother doesn’t like you,
but she doesn’t really like anyone
so that’s more of a compliment than if she did
it doesn’t matter if she likes you or not, anyway
cause _i_ like you
and that’s what’s important, right?
i’m _your girl_
__
“why dont you let me worry about _my girl_, ok?”
smiling, giggling, kicking my feet
because you feel safe
i’m not scared, i’m not worried, not when i’m ta...
my roots are buried deep in the grounds
of the amazon rainforest,
yanked up and skinned
prepared for the american society
i was born in chicago
but i dont remember a thing,
only knowing that it snowed on my birthday
my roots are buried deep in maryland,
where i’ve lived for most of my life
but i feel no loyalty,
no strong desire for crabs
(maybe some old bay, though)
my roots are buried nowhere...
“what the hell is going on?”
a ray of blank stares, all around the room
fidgety and guilty and someone’s crying
but i’ve never seen them before
“what’s going on?”
the woman with scary eyes and a face i don’t know walks up to me
“do you remember my name?”
“get away from me”
i’m scared
“im your mommy. do you remember me?”
“why am i here? let me go! let me go let me go let me go!”
shaking and sobbing...
fact or fancy?
is this real or just a delusion my poor,
sick mind
has conjured up
fact or fancy?
is this beautiful dream simply a nightmare
in disguise, a porceline mask thrown over
its face
fact or fancy?
i am a horrible beast dressed in shiny silk,
while my eyes gleam with a wicked desire to rip you to pieces, but i hide it with a bit of mascara
you think you know me, you think we’re fr...
anger swirls like a sandstorm across
a wide open desert
the chloroform green stings my vision
it’s fine
she’s allowed to like him
it’s stupid, the way i’m feeling
i told him i didn’t like him like that
i have someone already
i asked you what you’re doing
all day, you said “texting el”
“playing truth or dare with el”
“el el el el el”
shut up
i hate her i hate her i hate her
i like you but
i hate ...
im ready for this all to be over
ready for the pain to end,
the heartbreak and grief and hatred
to run from my brain
but i will give it one last go
if not for me, for you
because i love you
your presence is sunlight
and it’s already made the pain
the heartbreak
the grief and the hatred
sprint away...